View Workout (Meghan O'Rourke)
Bob Firman
September 25, 2010 (Afternoon)
Exercise Type: Run
Comments:
I did not like this race at all. I'm very disappointed with how I raced.
Mile 1: I got out quickly, which was good because there was so many girls in the race. People were pushing, so I pushed them right back. I was way too nervous though, and didn't let myself just race. The whole time I was freaking out about how many more people I needed to pass instead of just staying focused and relaxed like I was at Silverwood. I ran the first mile in 6:21, which was way too fast.
Mile 2: I ran up the hill well, but that's the only thing I did well on mile 2. The whole time negative thoughts kept popping into my head at their own will, such as, "I hate running. I never want to run again. Why am I doing this?"
Mile 3: Horrible. Tons of people passed me, and I gave up mentally. I'm very disappointed with how I finished this race.
I feel like this race was a repeat of last year's Bob Firman, and that's really discouraging because I wanted every race my senior year to go well. I thought I had enough bad races last year to hold me over this year. I know it shouldn't matter too much, because this is only one race, but this is my last year and I wanted to make evey race count. All I want is to be good at something that's really hard to do to prove my self-worth to myself and to defeat the negative part of my mind that says I can't do it. I've put in so much work that I feel like I let it all go to waste in this race. Oh well, I'm done being dramatic and whiny. I guess I'll just have to see how Warrior Mtn goes.
P.S. Congratulations to those who had a good race, and to the j.v. girls who passed out-that's pretty bad ass to run so hard that you pass out!