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All-Ohio Championships

September 30, 2011 (Afternoon)

Exercise Type: Run

Weather: rainy, wet, cold

Comments:
The weather actually turned out okay for the race itself, it was before and after that were really awful. We kept it positive though.
It was really a bummer not to have Justine for this race, since I remember my goal of staying with her as much as possible last year and the mental fights I had with myself related to keeping with her.
I had a similar self-struggle this time around, just without Justine :(
I wanted to give up at so many parts of this race. There were so many times when I said to myself, I don't need to fight for this, just don't do it this race...there are always other races..you're tired, you've been studying like crazy, your brain is just so fried...
When I was able to get up to Allison Steinbrunner I thought, okay I made it to her now I know I can do that, I'll just stop working for the rest of the race. It's okay if I lose her because at least I caught up to her once.
I'm not really sure how I fought with all of these awful thoughts this time. I remember a few distinct thoughts that helped though. "If this isn't the race and you're not going to push this one, what makes you think you'll do it at Nationals?" That made me realize that if I want to have my head in the game later in the season I couldn't just assume it would happen without trying now.
That didn't completely wipe out the negative thoughts, but it helped fight them. I also remember thinking, "yes, this hurts, it sucks, but IT'S SUPPOSED TO!!!" So much of the time I think I'm afraid of hurting and feeling all that suffering that it makes me panic and think that this is just one of those bad races. Like as if for a good race I wouldn't be in pain. I tried to focus on remembering All-Ohio last year and how much that hurt. It hurt a lot! But that was probably my best race, or one of my best, I've ever had. It's BECAUSE it hurts that it's so good.
So that was how I had to think about it.

Anyway, that was the race.