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November 2, 2017 (Morning)

Exercise Type: Run

Weather: Perfect

Comments:
Another awful race. I started out the day confident. My quad felt great, I didn't feel like utter crap, and I just was ready to race. All throughout the day I was drinking an enormous amount of water, and I was eating what I needed to eat. We did the warmup, a super abbreviated one, as everyone was either sick or dead. We got to the line and I threw up 3 times, but that had happened at b-ville so I wasn't worried. We did the 2 minute tempo, and I felt pretty good, but not great. I did my drills and strides, and the gun went off.

I started out too far back, I was with Cade, and from the very beginning it felt like I was trying to save something. I was so afraid of "stacs" happening all over again that I raced timidly, and didn't take the risks I should have been taking. At the 1 mile I think my pace was 5:15 or so, which was much too slow. I felt great at this point, and I don't know why I didn't send it. My legs were pretty fresh, and my breathing was fine. With something like b-ville, the pain came on hard at the mile and just didn't stop. At this point I felt like I was tempoing, but I didn't speed up because I just was so scared of dying at the end. I got up the hill, and crested decently, but was still too far back and going too slowly. Cade was still right with me here, and only really left me at the 2.4 mile or so I think. At this point I was trying to hunt, but I was still just timid. One of my best races, b-ville, I just got out hard, and didn't give a f*** that I was so far ahead, I just went with it. In this race, I was constantly worrying about me slowing down at the end, even though I felt great.

Of course, as my time suggests, I fell apart at the end. I am so angry at myself at this point. I feel great halfway through a race, but at the end I just can't close. I start thinking about how much there is left, and how I can't slow down, and how awful it would be if I did, and when people start passing me I just completely panic. It feels like every race i've had the past many years just hasn't mattered, all ive done is go backwards. I am so freaking fit right now, and there is zero excuse for how I keep doing. I hate myself for doing this, but the last 800 it just feels like Im going to die. I am so tired of feeling good at the 2 mile. I want to go out hard and actually race something. I can't keep on doing these races, they hurt my team and hurt my teammates. I need to be able to turn my brain off in the last 800, in fact the whole race, and just run. As for the rest of the guys, there is so much untapped potential in that field, especially in noah, that they just don't see. Until they have a breakout race, and until I actually start racing like a varsity runner, we are going to keep losing. I still want NXR, as crazy as that sounds. I know I am fit enough to be where I need to be, and with only 2, possibly 1 race left in the season, I need to show that.